I had a talk with my sensei Monday night because I was feeling discouraged about my grappling--and I need my grappling to get my black belt.
Besides feeling tired from my new job, I just don't feel I'm doing well compared to some others in my class.
1) Don't compare myself with others, who by definition are in different situations. (I'm re-re-relearning this lesson.)
2) He can see what I've overcome my fears about my knee getting reinjured--I had to do that before I could move on.
3) The new job is also draining me mentally, which affects what you can learn in grappling and how fast you can react.
He said to focus not on everything, but on two or three submissions from the guard and from side control, and to take a private lesson or two, which I'm going to do.